Destinal accountability (ICA)

This occurs when an individual gives up his old ties to this world, and enters into a marriage covenant with Being itself. He is henceforth responsible to God alone and every deed is rendered accountable to seeing life as just one deed – to invent the new creation that was the old self but is now transformed. Siddhartha in Hermann Hesse's book of the same name portrays the experience of this transformation.

A dimension of this experience is a sense of awe, that is fear and fascination. The fear is that maybe it doesn't matter, and this is accompanied by a kind of sorrow over all the violations that have been involved in the journey to this moment. The fascination is the sense that one's life is in touch with history; and there is an utter openness to the unknown in one's life and in history. The decision is to let history be the judge and to give one's self completely to it. This leaves a new sense of who or what one is obligated to; and that one's life is completed. One is full of peace as one grasps that that there is nothing else to do.

This state is number 32 in the ICA Other World in the midst of this World.