Personal epiphany (ICA)

This is the experience or knowledge of being preposterously nominated to be the presence of God in the world. The decision is "I'm it. You want to know how life is? Look at me". It may be compared to Red McMurphy in "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" being the way for his fellows and taking upon himself the offence and persecution experienced by those who embody reality. It is the stance of the prophet Isaiah: "Here am I Lord, send me".

A dimension of this experience is a sense of awe, that is fear and fascination. The fear is not knowing where this could lead nor the price to be paid, which is sensed to be very high. The fascination is the chance to create one's life. There is a sense of power. The decision is to be both united with and open to the interior deeps of one's own life; to risk all one's being in living one's life. A style of audacious certainty develops with the knowledge of being a marked person.

This state is number 52 in the ICA Other World in the midst of this World.